"Her eyes, I could've loved her."
The morning has a foul stench in the air, the stench was not of corpses although plenty were about. The stench was of a bloodlust I have come to detest and yet, come to know as fact. Sword ready at my side, my evil eyes peer over the crowd that has gathered. Scattered throughout, I spot sympathizers, family and friends. They are but raindrops in an ocean of bitter ignorance. These people came here to see a show, a sermon and I am their priest.
I hear activity from the White Tower, my lady wears a red coat complementing the event in a grim way. She is already a ghost, for she is already dead to us all. She floats through the crowd, now silent as night. For a moment I see something unfamiliar to someone in my line of work; a hesitation. Her presence alone brings with it a reflection that no man can resist. I feel the blade beneath my clenched fist tremble, all I can do to control it is put it aside. Solemnly she rises up the platform, I make a cardinal mistake. Our eyes meet, in that brief moment I realize something my soul shall not dare repeat for fear of a wretched death.
Her eyes, I could've loved her; I could've made this woman a wife, a mother, a happy soul. If I were not who I was and she not condemned, we could be anyone. By all appearances and indeed presence, this vision was not for lacking of love. Any man could and would melt for her; I even find myself wanting to save my maiden. Kill anyone who stands in my way, mortal or divine. Sweet Anne Boleyn, I knew of your plight and I now understand what the almoner described; a sweet victim of monarchic insanity. She speaks, I dare not interrupt for all the angels of this earth and the next.
Her speech sincere, glorious as if written in the divine book itself, torn from the pages of a lost chapter. If not for the milk and honey of her voice, it would not have pierced all as it did. The raindrops of the ocean have become as the ocean itself, not a person standing there would dare wish this flower come to harm and yet I am to bring her harm; the ultimate harm. All I can do to hold back the tears is bite my lip, I draw blood and not of my charge. She finishes all too soon. She turns once more to me and it's more than I can bear.
"Please ma'am, kneel now before the block," my voice croaking as if I've swallowed sawdust. She obeys and I wish my mouth dared not speak it's horrid despicable words. The blood tastes of iron and steel in my mouth, I pick up my own steel. I ask her to stretch out her hands; she trembles, but bravely complies. I hear her last words for surely she repeats them with sincere conviction. "To Jesus Christ I commend my soul..." I take one last look around almost instinctively for a divine escape. Surely the lord she prays to will send angels to save her. "...Lord Jesus receive my soul." She looks at me one last time, how can I slaughter the lamb whose eyes pierce mine. Not for this brave soul's sake but my own, I must divert her stare.
It's all I can do to keep from insanity. I call out to beyond her sight, "Where is my sword?" She gazes off for the instrument that will befall her, but it was a ruse for it comes swift. It descends upon her sweet swan neck in the distraction. With a thud, she is in two. Not a sound is uttered as all stare on in silence.
A great evil has passed over the courtyard this morn and it's hand is my own. I shall never wash this blood from my soul.